[ and told her it was for her own good ]

i should be doing like a million other IMPORTANT stuff for school right now instead of typing an entry.

but well, to relieve stress. my mind's gonna explode if i keep thinking abt school work all the time.

which is already what i've been doing.

breathe media, watch media, hear media, smell media, think media, dream media, work media, stressed media.

i wanna talk about something that is completely unrelated.

i'll blog about ex-stuff.

ex-boyfriends? ex-crushes?

short-term crushes which last for a day to long-term ones which last for years? (on and off though, hehe)

learnt that it is never good to get close to your dream guy because reality hurts.

admiring him from afar is always a better idea.

of course, too minor crushes/flings will not be mentioned.

hope memory serves.

i'll start from sec 1.

zhiW.
FUN: no one ever said he was not cute. lives near me. goes gaga whenever i get to be on the same bus as him, either on the way to school or back. almost held my hands once. by accident. cool guy who goes to school with only a book in his hands.
FACT: didnt have dress sense. hair looks oily nowadays.

hongK.
FUN: same as above.
FACT: became so guai! yucks. has a girlfriend but he's so different from the rebel he used to be, nowadays.

melvinC.
FUN: one of my hongK' best buds. developed a crush on him eventually too. hee. skater style. like wow~
FACT: disappeared. such a mystery. at least he's the only one who didnt "destroy" my illusions. haha.

juanC.
FUN: first guy in sec school. filty rich. broke, patched. kinda romantic and very sweet. too immature to appreciate him.
FACT: no difference from before.

domNaka.
FUN: half jap. dresses well. kinda sweet.
FACT: no idea what happened to him.

queensway guy.
FUN: was so infatuated with him. travelled all the way fom cck to his shop almost every week just to chat him up.
FACT: he changed jobs.

wq.
FUN: the serious. oneyearTwoweeks.
FACT: blew off.

chestnut guy.
FUN: same bus stop and route. brightens my day to see him in the mornings.
FACT: i graduated.

joel and marcus.
FUN: 3 years younger. so cute!
FACT: dont think they dig older girls.

calvin.RATED MOST WASTED.
FUN: cute handsome jappy guy. not sissy, but macho. noticed him one day on the way home. stays within walking distance of my house. then.. neighbour school. same basketball court! watched him play. carnival happens. met him again. held his hand!
FACT: i was too flirty to be tied down. now he's enjoying attention from EVERY girl in his school.

snoopy.
FUN: whirlwind. very fast.
FACT: all talk no action. i dont like.

amos 1.
FUN: only guy where i took initiative to get to know him first.
FACT: he's suspected to be gay.

amos 2.
FUN: primary school friend who underwent much changes. swept off my feet the first time i saw him after so long.
FACT: just drifted apart.

chiu.
FUN: amazing eyes, great bod.
FACT: he IS a teacher.

jie.
FUN: school biggest bully aka Bengs' Lao Da likes me? really experienced guy.
FACT: i gt tired.

benP.
FUN: real short-termed. pretty nice guy actually. knows how to be a boyfriend.
FACT: just didnt like him anymore.

yy.
FUN: passionate affair that never worked out due to misunderstanding.
FACT: buddies now.

phil.RATED MOST DISAPPOINTING.
FUN: senior. dream come true to meet him again after he graduated. coincidentally shifted house to my next block. went on double date. loves him to bits. no contact. met him by chance months later. contact.
FACT: i repeat, it is NEVER good when you get to know what kind of person your "dream" guy really is.

so ends my scondary school memorable crushes.

to list all would take 41 days and nights.

and nobody would want that.